I. Think. I. Should. KILL. Myself.

Someone once said "You can either sulk over the spilt milk or pour yourself another cup." I choose to do both because life is boring without sulking and whining.

I complain a lot. SO? September 28, 2010

Filed under: General — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 9:47 am

Check THIS out.

A friend of my who I’ve known since I was young from church made a desperate attempt on trying to be different on my status update on Facebook.

First of all, who is he to be asking me to stop complaining and to do something? I’m pretty sure I’m allowed to seat back and complain all I want. It makes me look like a jerk but what can I do? Carry signs and demonstrate?

According to that guy, NO! We have to think of a DIFFERENT way to solve this huge racial tension political issue in Malaysia! That word, “different”, really bothers me when a person who was in Grace Youth (now known as Youth Alive, is the youth group in my church back in Malaysia) uses it excessively! Most of them don’t know when to stop using the word “different”! Makes them look like they’re desperate for attention, which I suspect is why most of these former Grace Youth goers are trying to be “different” in the first place.

On top of the “empty” advice he tried to instill in me (and probably indirectly to my other Malaysian friends who commented or liked my status update), he uses his own version of 1337 to type out his two cents. Oh my. Why do I even bother making a point to this fool who sees my posting of this Facebook status update to be similar to what the Malay Supremacy NGO (Perkasa) is doing.

That’s not all, ladies and gentlemen (or ghost readers xD). He even admits that he isn’t doing anything to help/try to make change/a difference in this matter. Well, I assumed that’s the case since he wrote “Certainly, i aint c0mplaining or m0cking like hw u do..” after asking him what has he done to “solve” anything.

Now, how can I make a “huge-ass” assumption like that just from “Certainly, i aint c0mplaining or m0cking like hw u do..” you ask? First of all, he’s in the same boat as me in terms of our opinions do not matter to anyone with power. So I’m pretty sure that “Certainly, i aint c0mplaining or m0cking like hw u do..” means “I’m actually Not doing anything.” Secondly, he’s worse than me when it comes to making a point clearly (super bad…. suuuuupppppeeerrr baaadddd) plus, as mentioned above, his crappy “1337” lingo doesn’t help at all. Thirdly, from past experiences with him, most of the stuff he say don’t make sense to me and are usually to kiss-ass, which I must admit I do that sometimes (especially to my Bhutanese friend). Come on, it’s a fair assumption, right?

He’s actually a really nice guy. But oh my goodness, I just had to share this with whoever reads my blog on how foolish some nice people can be.


The Story of My Life… September 27, 2010

Filed under: General,School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 4:56 am

Before I start “whining” about my mundane college life, I would like all of you readers (if there are any) to follow, subscribe, comment on, read Yie Vin’s blog. She posts her nude pictures up! OH JYEAH!Her blog entries are exactly (so far) what I think about the politics (racial politics?) except that she can explain everything clearly unlike me >.< So yeah, drop by her blog if you don’t have anything else to do.

School is killing me these days. It’s not just the workload I have for all the classes I’m taking this semester. It’s also because of the dumbass classmates I have, unneeded dramas in a class, old ancient lecturer who is being super strict in his grading, and me still single :/

Thank God there are still some good people around me who are kind enough to help school NOT kill me too quickly. These people keep me company in and out of class, PWNING nooblets on HoN, have meals with, go surfing with, and also do the yard. WAIT. SOMEONE HELPED US (as a house) CUT THE GRASS IN OUR YARD?!

Yes šŸ™‚ Thank God for Josh’s (also Jon’s; Endriss) dad for cutting the God-forsaken grass in our yard by transporting his riding lawn mower and weed-whacker and using both these devices to cut our grass (Josh and I offered to help but he was in the zone and didn’t need our help), FREE OF CHARGE! Well, Josh did give his dad a can of Coke. I guess you can count that as “payment” for the “job”.

Haha! Just kidding! Thank God for Josh’s dad’s willingness in helping us cut the grass!

“Small” things like this help lighten the “load”.

Look at how neat the front yard is now!

Look at the awesome job Mr. Endriss did! THANK YOU!

New desk "setting". Now I've ample space to study and do my homework on my desk WHILE watching whatever shows I wanna watch šŸ™‚

The infamous moped and my two surfboards. No, I'm not a surfing junkie and those super tall weeds are dying, THANK GOD and Mr. Endriss, of course šŸ™‚

I guess I'm still proud to be a Malaysian. F-U, INDONESIA! Haha! Jk.


So… September 25, 2010

Filed under: General — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 9:45 pm

I find one my friend’s Facebook status really ironic. He/she complains about how people who ask for his/her advice but don’tĀ appreciateĀ them. He/she also claims to be wiser than those people who asked for his/her advice indirectly and then ends the status update with sarcasm.

You don’t need to know who this is. It doesn’t really matter.

I find this status update really really ironic because that update reflects his/her situation.

I’m not claiming to be “wiser” than this person but I’ve given some advice to him/her before but this person didn’t “appreciate” it.

What’s with the “appreciating” advices anyway? Haha! I understand following advices but appreciating advices are kinda different from actually following advices? I don’t know, correct me if I’m wrong.

So yeah, somehow that update just annoyed me.


I. Hate. School. September 21, 2010

Filed under: School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 8:48 pm

Phew! Got done with my Geology exam this morning. Feeling so much better than last night. Was playing Heroes of Newerth anyways will 1am xD

Next class? Physical Oceanography :/ I guess we’ll be getting back out first “mid-term” results in twenty minutes. That class and Coastal Methods FREAK me out all the time! I’m worried :/

Both these classes are so unorganized and it worries me. And so much unneeded dramas in Coastal Methods! Somehow, I’m the person who always get the blame :/

Last week on Monday, my Coastal Methods class went out to Honolii (a popular surf place on this side of the island) to gather some data. Do you know how unorganized and annoying this trip was? It was BRUTAL! The procedure handout asked us to collect water samples from different stations and then to collect several types of data from those water samples (eg. temperature and salinity) using a YSI probe (Google YSI to know what the device is for). That procedure is in like the second page of the handout.

Guess what? We were supposed to get data for Dissolved Oxygen from each water samples using the YSI probe but we didn’t do it since it was stated AT THE BACK OF THE HANDOUT IN PAGE 5! I even asked my professor in front of 8-10 students on whether we need to record down anymore data other than the temperature and the salinity of the water samples. He said no (and to just make note on the weather and poop like that). I only realized that we needed the YSI reading of the DO AFTER going through 5 FRIGGING WATER SAMPLE STATIONS!

Then this girl was like “Yah, we need the YSI DO reading. You didn’t know that?” Excuse me missy, we were collecting data IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE, you could have just REMINDED the data collectors.

Why did I get indirectly blamed this time? Because I was the data recorder. D’oh!

One professor to run this fieldtrip? Not a good idea. Scrap this frigging class before someone commits suicide because of the stupid unneeded dramas and stress! No, not talking about me. I KILL nooblets on HoN šŸ™‚

Physical Oceanography? A waste of time >.< ‘Nuff said!

I thought school would be better AFTER Organic Chemistry and Physics. I guess I’m wrong.


Hypocrite. September 20, 2010

Filed under: General — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 2:45 am

Everyone’s a hypocrite. Saying that you’re not one makes you one. Unless you’re REALLY REALLY not hypocritical to the people around you AND true to yourself, then I’m sorry for saying the sentence before this.

I admit, I’m a huge hypocrite. It’s HARD not to be one. Ā Humans are selective in everything we do.

Take the Ground Zero Mosque for instance. The USA is a country build on freedom and yet Americans are going against this project on building a mosque close to Ground Zero whereĀ theĀ September 11th, 2001 attacks happened. Land of the free? Sure, selective freedom.

Same case in Malaysia. We have the freedom of speech and yet we can be put in jail for questioning directly or indirectly Article 153 of the Constitution which includes the specialĀ privileges of the Malay people.

How about our friends and family members? They’re all hypocrites too. At least mine are.

I’m not trying to point fingers at anybody, just trying to say that it’s really, really difficult to NOT be hypocritical :/ .

But there’s a difference between being dumb and being a hypocrite. Now, both of these get on my nerves but being dumb AND hypocritical?! Gosh! I slap you!

I know, sometimes I can be both too. I slap myself šŸ˜¦

PS: Am I mixing up irony and hypocrisy? Argh!


Exams! Exams! Exams! September 16, 2010

Filed under: General,School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 6:34 am

I hate exams. I love learning new things but being tested on them, it’s annoying!

I have a Physical Oceanography exam tomorrow šŸ˜¦ It’s not fun :/ Not fun at all. No one in the class is ready for it. I feel like crying šŸ˜¦

Oh, on the bright side, my digital camera is actually working! Some pictures:

The girl in the picture is my Target girl crush. I WANT HER!


Gravatar! September 12, 2010

Filed under: Uncategorized — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 9:28 pm

Gravatar is finally working! Woot woot!