I. Think. I. Should. KILL. Myself.

Someone once said "You can either sulk over the spilt milk or pour yourself another cup." I choose to do both because life is boring without sulking and whining.

Outsourced! October 30, 2010

Filed under: General — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 11:56 pm

Cast of Outsourced

You guys have to watch Outsourced šŸ™‚ It’s a Ā new TV series based on an indie movie with the same title. Super super funny!

And this TV show made me miss/crave Indian food. GRRR.


I facepalm myself now. October 26, 2010

Filed under: General,School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 8:47 am

Argh! I screwed up my group today by doing a really bad job in the introduction section of my group’s proposal presentation earlier today in my coastal methods class. *cries* I wasn’t freaking out till it was our turn to present. And it got worse when Google Docs jammed the weakass computer system in that Marine Science Building computer lab. SO SORRY GUYS! šŸ˜¦

I also facepalm myself for accidentally knocking down a potted plant at the tutoring center earlier today at the start of the group meeting before our presentation.

But the most facepalm event of the day was when my lab partner, who is also (in my understanding) the “boss” of the tutors at the tutoring center, acted as a jerk/douchebag. He had valid reason to do so though.

Some soil from the potted plant got onto the carpet at the tutoring center. since my group members were there to discuss and work on our proposal paper and presentation, I said I’ll clean the mess I made after going over some stuff with my group.

Guess what Mr. Tutor Boss said to me?

“I heard you knocked down my plant. When you make a mess in life you don’t expect someone to clean up after you.”


WTF?! He’s comparing soil on carpet, to mess in REAL LIFE! :O:O:O And he was being a bitch about it too! I told him that I’m having a meeting with my group and that I’ll CLEAN IT AFTER I GET DONE WITH THE IMPORTANT STUFF.

But NOOOOOO. Mr. Tutor Boss wants it done NOW.

He even had the guts (which I think was NOT sincere at all) to say that he’s “sorry for being a jerk just now.” I replied, “Yes [insert name here], you were being a jerk just now. I’m having a group meeting if you can’t see.”

Funny how when you get to know someone better in life it just disappoints you when most of them are complete jerks. First impression – nice person. Hang out for awhile – decent friend. Take a class together – WTF IS THIS IDIOT DOING/SAYING?!

Key phrase: MOST OF THEM.

So yeah, I not only have to deal with the people I dislike the most this Wednesday when we go out for sample collection for our final project in coastal methods, I now have to deal with an older, immature lab partner tomorrow and on Thursday.

Fall 2010 = Misery. This makes meĀ appreciate and to treasure the good moments with good friends more.

Rather have good friends than jerks called “friends”.


Facepalm moments in Coastal Methods. October 21, 2010

Filed under: General,School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 9:35 am


I wished that all you (phantom) readers were in my Coastal Methods class! Why?

Despite all the crapiness of this class, there are some really (stupid) funny moments in class. Especially when this buff guy speaks.Ā He says some of the dumbest things in class sometimes.

Take earlier today for example. One of the professors for this class was justĀ advisingĀ us to work together more efficiently, not only among the people in your own group, but other groups in the class as well, since most of the assignments require all groups to share their data to be compiled into a huge ass master spreadsheet. These spreadsheets should contain all raw data from the field and also numbers from all calculation needed to answer questions that come along with the assignment.

But not everyone updates the Google Docs (yeap, we use that now =.=) spreadsheet on time. Some update a couple of days later when a spreadsheet is set up or couple of days BEFORE the assignment is due. Some groups don’t do the right calculations too, which results in other groups to calculate the “right” number for the other groups data and NOT sharing it with other groups.

I mean come on, if someone does something wrongly, let the person know. Don’t just be like “Oh, this guy is wrong. Lets just leave the wrong calculated values on the master spreadsheet instead of correcting/letting that guy know!”

Anyways, back to the buffed up, Wolverine lookalike. He made a comment that some groups see these assignments to be a competition and that we, as a class, despite of being in different groups, shouldn’t be competitive.

I was like, WTF is this jerk off saying?!

In fact, everyone in the class was like WTF??!??!!!!

COMPETITIVE?! How is this being competitive?

The best part was when all the groups were calculating values for our fish survey data and that buff idiot didn’t want to share his data with us by updating the Google Docs spreadsheet! OMG! Competitive?!

“Everyone’s calculating everyone’s groups’ values. Why should I give you my data?” WTF?!

I’m so glad that everyone (minus the group members in that jerk off’s group) in class now makes fun of this comment.

It’s so fun going up to your classmate and say “No, I will not help you. This is a competition, MUTHAFCKA!”


I’m proud to be a nerd/geek. October 15, 2010

Filed under: General,School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 2:56 am

I’ve been getting some really snarky comments from a friend of mine when I talk about Heroes of Newerth with some of my other friends.

“You’re such a nerd, Jon.”

“You need to stop playing Heroes of Newerth and do something useful.”

I just feel like telling him to go screw his butthole with a dildo or something.

Mr. Friend, what have you been doing that is so useful? You’re dumb, you’re probably going to fail in Organic Chemistry, and stop being a know-it-all because YOU DON’T KNOW SHIT! There’s a fine line between being confident and being a know-it-all. You’re a dumb know-it-all. If you wanna show off, at least be SMART!

Anyways, guess what my favorite snack is? :):):):)

Trailmix, MOFOs! Picture from CandyAddict.com.

I hate raisins but it’s bearable in this snack. Wish I could get trailmix for a lower price though :/

I finally did well in my Quantitative Analysis exam! I got a 92/100 on my second test! Woot woot! Thank God! Time and energy spent paid off! Hoping to get an A in this class to give my GPA a puny “boost” since I both my Marine Science classes are so unorganized this semester and Geology…. Ummmm…. No idea what’s going on in that class! haha!


I hate being a junior. October 13, 2010

Filed under: School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 7:53 pm

Since my first semester here in University of Hawaii at Hilo, I’ve been on a class registering spree! What I meant was that I love reaching the maximum credit hours that a student can take in Ā a semester. Which also means I love taking loads and loads of classes.

One reason why is because I get to save money that way. I’m not gonna take the minimum amount of credit hours when my dad is paying my (international, mind you) school fees. I want what my money’s worth for in a semester. Crap, that means I’d have to hit the gym more often… That’s a different story >.<

Also, it keeps me occupied. I don’t have a job. I really want a job but there’s no way I can get a job on campus now. I was kinda disappointed when my former employer told me that she had to let me go since no students wanted my help in tutoring math and chemistry. Sigh. So yeah, classes help me occupy my time.

Lastly, since I’m forced to take the senior thesis class because I want to graduate with a Bachelor’s of Science degree (which I think is a bullshit requirement for an undergraduate degree), I don’t want to take difficult nor many classes during my senior year so that I can focus on my thesis instead of (possibly) dumbass stress and unneeded dramas like what I’m going through now. Hopefully I’ll only have to take the minimum credit hours during my senior year just to focus on something that I’m forced to do.

Oh, I hate being a junior because my Marine Science Coastal Methods professors just assume that as junior standing college students, we will know how to do our assignments correctly without much help by any instructors.

That maybe true in some cases but if you’re presenting us with a new topic/assignment, HELP US FIGURE OUT CALCULATIONS AND WHAT NOT! And when writing an assignment, WHERE’S THE FRIGGING GUIDELINE?! 15 points were taken away from my group’s first assignment because of cosmetics of the paper, NOT because of our opinions.

I’m sick and tired of worrying about this unorganized class. It’s really getting on my nerves.

But what can I do? I’m only a junior undergraduate international student who is hated by most of my classmates.


Don’t get it…

Filed under: General,School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 4:28 am

I don’t get it how some people can be so unforgiving.

I know I get angry at people but I definitely don’t act like a jerk towards them. If they ask a question or for help, of course I’m going to answer them and help them. If I’m really really angry at them, I’ll decline them politely.

Not the case with a classmate of mine. I know she’s feeling really angry with all of her classmates but please don’t be a bitch about it. More unneeded drama in my Marine Science Coastal Methods class, ladies and gentlemen!

I also don’t get it why there weren’t any calculations on my Physical Oceanography test earlier this morning. I hope my professor wasn’t being serious when he said that there weren’t any calculations because a dumbass classmate of mine requested for no calculations at all. usually I’d be happy about not having calculations on a test but the calculations that we did in this class for the homework problems before this test are super simple! If my professor would have included calculation problems similar to the homework problems, I could’ve gotten at least 20 points for the test easily!

Instead we had five questions of sketching and writing. Grrr. I smell another bad grade in that class.

I thought I’d gotten over all these stress due to unneeded dramas, pricks, and dumbasses last weekend but nope. The beginning of this week just ruined it.

And why is this girl singing in the frigging LIBRARY?!

I’m hoping for the first week of November to be a blast! Paul’s coming to Hilo for a week before heading back to Georgia and I’m not gonna let any pricks and unneeded dramas ruin this (hopefully) awesome week!

This semester is killing me. I’m hoping to get done with this semester (and college) and to one day look back at all these screwed up moments and laugh at myself for feeling this way.