I. Think. I. Should. KILL. Myself.

Someone once said "You can either sulk over the spilt milk or pour yourself another cup." I choose to do both because life is boring without sulking and whining.

Fall 2010 December 12, 2010

Filed under: General,School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 12:03 am

This semester went by super quick. The days were long but the weeks were short. I hated most of my classes and hated most of my classmates in those classes. Fall 2010 was an eye opener to me on how dumb some people can be and how you can be screwed because of favoritism.

Fall 2010 was not fun at all. I wasted way too much of my time in a class that achieving an A is close to impossible since I have an idiot in my group and we (the class) were expected to know stuff for NEW topics/assignments which resulted in really bad assignment grades.

I didn’t accomplish much in Fall 2010. I wanted to play drums for BCM’s praise and worship team but the worship leader kept having practices on a day that I cannot show up. Plus, some of his arrangements on songs are kinda lame. And most of time he wanted a djembe player, not a drummer. I like playing the djembe but I really wanted to play the drums.

Super long hours in class and lab made me miss P90X a lot. It was supposed to be a workout for me to go for free and I couldn’t make it at all. Except for two days. This sucks. Also, weekend soccer is getting boring since we don’t have any regulars to count on to show up. It’s always driving all the way to University Heights Park and waiting for people till 4pm then leaving that place just to come home to disappointment since I always look forward to soccer.

I wanted to volunteer more in the Marine Science department but I just cannot stand the mini politics in that place. I really wanted to join the marine mammal response network but I’m not thick-skinned to be able to ignore whatever crappy moments that happened in my class due to the coordinators of this network.

But thank God for motivating times during Fall 2010 like when Paul came to visit, playing non-raging games of HoN, playing soccer when people DID show up, the visit from Nickles, and the enjoyable moments with my housemates.

Overall, Fall 2010 was a bittersweet semester. Mostly bitter though. I do not want to relive this period of my life if I had a chance to go back through time. Fall 2010 is the crappiest semester yet.

Now, finals. Argh! The horror!

And oh, I’m still single. Gosh.


HP(hail) and Happy Thanksgiving! November 25, 2010

Filed under: General — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 10:16 pm

Never, ever, get a HP product, ever. Laptops, desktop systems, printers, the whole HP shebang of products. NEVER. Unless of course, if you get one for free, then just receive it with open arms!

My next laptop (if I ever get one) will probably be an Acer or an Asus. Asian brands for the win! Really cheap machines for awesome builds!

Not sure how am I going to get a laptop in Malaysia though. I hate all them Chinese techies :/ Argh! The horror!

Random issue: I’m downloading a file at close to 600kb/s on uTorrent. OMG! Awesome! Doesn’t this make you people back in Malaysia cry?

Happy Thanksgiving people! Americans are celebrating the genocide of the Amerindians!


Sigh. November 22, 2010

Filed under: General,School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 11:44 am

A professor from my Coastal Methods class posted an announcement on our class’s web portal about a complaint made by a “concerned citizen” to the school after seeing one of my classmates standing on the coral with “3 foot long fins” while collecting data for their final project.

Alright, I hate this class. I hate some of my classmates (all of them are douchebags) and one of the professors. But this complaint made to my school is dumb. Some of them are dumbasses but I’m pretty sure they don’t STAND on a frigging coral head.

That “concerned citizen” is probably a dumbass hippy. They are Marine Science students! I know people make mistakes but I’m pretty sure my classmates who were collecting data didn’t stand on a coral head (or whatever coral thingy machig). Thank you so much, dumbass “concerned citizen.” You have now added more unneeded drama in this frigging class. Thanks a lot! Now go smoke some pot and screw yourself.

This “concerned citizen” even threatened to take pictures to send it to the newspaper agency here but not revealing his/her identity. WOW. Dear “concerned citizen,” please stop making dumbass complaints like this. You ruined what’s left of the dignity of the Marine Science department. The department didn’t need that. Grrr.

If someone really did stand on a coral of some sort, I really hope it’s that pretentious douchebag who looks and sounds fake all the time. Maybe now we can frigging call him an idiot openly to his face.

My Chemistry lab partner tried talking to me last Friday night on Facebook. He gave me the cold shoulder earlier that day before entering the classroom. He really needs to stop acting like a wise guy and admit that everyone’s life is different and he should compare any aspects of it to what he’s facing now because the words that come out from his mouth makes him sound like a dumbass and are just plain douchbaggery.

Dear Chemistry lab partner, you’ve already graduated with a degree. What the heck are you still doing in school? You keep saying that the classes you’re taking now will help you gain knowledge and enhance your resume for future use but you also keep complaining about having too much stress from school. I understand that you’re going through some crappy times now with stress from school and family. However, you shouldn’t behave like a 14 years old kid. You don’t have to be a jerk and throw random mini-tantrums when you’re around me. If you don’t like me answering your questions, don’t ask me. I try helping you but you don’t listen to me and keep interrupting me, trying to tell me what you know which don’t really make sense at all. I’m always ready to help you but it’s up to you if you want to listen to me. If you don’t like me, don’t talk to me. I don’t really give a damn now about our “friendship.” You’re no more the nice guy when I first met you. You’re now an asshole, a lowlife who doesn’t want to stop to take time to think on how to manage your feelings. I’m so glad that I don’t have to take another class with you. Maybe I shouldn’t have offered to be your lab partner in the first place. I never thought that you would sink this low.

And oh. STOP LEAVING THE LAB TO GO OUT TO SMOKE. You’re not the only one stressing out about school. It’s really annoying when you exit the lab and come back after me and Dara complete our sample analyses and then asking us what we did.

It’s going to be an awkward day today. First a talk with my Chemistry lab partner, then to Coastal Methods class.

Fall 2010 = Crappy.


Picture Galore! November 21, 2010

Filed under: General,School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 10:58 pm

So I met this girl from an International Student Association (ISA) event in my first semester here in UHH. She’s from Bhutan. Wait. Where’s Bhutan you ask? Google it, dumbasses.

And then we took Organic Chemistry together last school year. Then we started studying together in the second semester of Organic Chemistry with another friend of hers who is from Brazil.

They’re names are Kunzang and Dara and their awesome. Kinda. Maybe ok friends. I don’t know. xD

Me, Dara, and Kunzang.

Me, Kunzang, and Dara.

My favorite ๐Ÿ™‚

There are actually more pictures of us but I’m lazy to link all of them. I’m kinda hungry now too.


Grrrr. November 13, 2010

Filed under: General — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 7:36 am

I hate myself. Hate the way I feel now. Partially, I blame Mr. Paulwrus.

Iย threatened to be an alcoholic when Paul left in the summer of 2009 but I never really did it. But now,ย with how crappy I’m feeling, I might actually do something stupid like being an alcoholic.



Halloween! November 3, 2010

Filed under: General — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 6:39 am

Late Halloween post ๐Ÿ™‚ I semi-dressed up this year as Wizard Mickey Mouse. I got the costume all wrong though :/

How Wizard Mickey Mouse is supposed to look like. Picture from PicsDigger.

Yeap, Hobo Wizard Mickey Mouse.

Come on, I don’t even spend time going over my Chemistry homework before I pass it up. I just put it on because my two friends, Dara and Kunzang, who brought me to this club to party, were dressed up.

The club was boring though. Super super soft music and the lights weren’t that great. The only awesome thing is the fellowship with my friends and their friends. And oh, the two girls getting down together at the dance floor. RAWR! Haha! Just kidding.

Ms. Dara and I ๐Ÿ™‚

Kunzang and I dancing xD

Me as Hobo Wizard Mickey Mouse, Dara the Flightless Bee, and Kunzang the Bhutanese Navi!

Ms. Kunzang and I ๐Ÿ™‚
Three of us again ๐Ÿ™‚ My favourite picture ๐Ÿ™‚

Ms. Dara and I dancing ๐Ÿ™‚ Well, at least she is :/
Dara and I again.
Dara was taking this group picture. The other people posing for this picture are Dara’s friends.

And this has nothing to do with Halloween but… PAUL’S COMING TO TOWN THIS THURSDAY!!!! :):):):):):):):) Look what he did for me before leaving South Korea:

Paulwrus and a Moon Bear at Bear Tree Park!


And oh, I hate school! GRRR!


Outsourced! October 30, 2010

Filed under: General — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 11:56 pm

Cast of Outsourced

You guys have to watch Outsourced ๐Ÿ™‚ It’s a ย new TV series based on an indie movie with the same title. Super super funny!

And this TV show made me miss/crave Indian food. GRRR.