I. Think. I. Should. KILL. Myself.

Someone once said "You can either sulk over the spilt milk or pour yourself another cup." I choose to do both because life is boring without sulking and whining.

Grrrr. November 13, 2010

Filed under: General — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 7:36 am

I hate myself. Hate the way I feel now. Partially, I blame Mr. Paulwrus.

I threatened to be an alcoholic when Paul left in the summer of 2009 but I never really did it. But now, with how crappy I’m feeling, I might actually do something stupid like being an alcoholic.



Gloves. November 4, 2010

Filed under: School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 6:54 am

Infamous nitrile glove used

Everyone who has been in a higher education (or some high schools) science lab should know what nitrile gloves are. They kinda protect your hands from harmful (eg. caustic) chemicals and protect your samples from being “defiled” by whatever is on your fingers when handling the samples.

Cool right?

But since I started using these gloves, skin on my finger tips start peeling off. So I hate using them in both my Chemistry and Marine Science lab now. To be honest, we don’t really need gloves with the chemicals we’re handling in both these labs since it’s always smart to wash your hands with soap right after labs.

(It won’t be a Jonathan blog entry without rants! Get READY!)

Some people trust these gloves way too much! It’s crazy! Drives me nuts!!!!!

Like when we were using some form of cyanide in our Chemistry lab. I know it’s dangerous and all but it was in a clean dry glass container (forgot whether it was a beaker or Erlenmeyer flask). After carrying out an analytical test on it, I passed it to my lab partner (who came late to lab on that day) to clean the glass container since he offered to help. He wasn’t using any gloves and he grabbed the container containing the cyanide sample and THEN asking me what’s in the glass container. I told him it had the cyanide sample in it and he got upset at me at passing him the container without his gloves on! And then he went on and on and on about how I’m gonna eat a sandwich using my fingers after the lab with cyanide on my fingers. I’m like WTF 0.0

Also, earlier this evening in my Marine Science lab, my group and another group had to plot a standard silica curve (spectrophotometry >.<) to determine how much silica is present in our samples collected for our final project. This bitch I kept making me and my friend to wear gloves to handle not-so-harmful chemicals. When we finally made our standard solutions, we started reading the absorbance values from a spectrophotometer but the absorbance values were different from last week (or from what it’s supposed to read, at least close to the value). Guess what? First thing that bitch said was it’s because of us not wearing gloves 0.0 I’m like WTF?!

I did screw up a standard solution but we fixed that. SO SHE BLAMES US FOR NOT WEARING GLOVES 0.0

Yeap, gotta wear the rubber… Don’t wanna ruin anything.

Coastal Methods Fall 2010 = Backstabbing class. Nobody is a true friend. You may try as hard as you can, but it’s so difficult being a true friend in that class. Especially to them two face bitches.


Halloween! November 3, 2010

Filed under: General — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 6:39 am

Late Halloween post 🙂 I semi-dressed up this year as Wizard Mickey Mouse. I got the costume all wrong though :/

How Wizard Mickey Mouse is supposed to look like. Picture from PicsDigger.

Yeap, Hobo Wizard Mickey Mouse.

Come on, I don’t even spend time going over my Chemistry homework before I pass it up. I just put it on because my two friends, Dara and Kunzang, who brought me to this club to party, were dressed up.

The club was boring though. Super super soft music and the lights weren’t that great. The only awesome thing is the fellowship with my friends and their friends. And oh, the two girls getting down together at the dance floor. RAWR! Haha! Just kidding.

Ms. Dara and I 🙂

Kunzang and I dancing xD

Me as Hobo Wizard Mickey Mouse, Dara the Flightless Bee, and Kunzang the Bhutanese Navi!

Ms. Kunzang and I 🙂
Three of us again 🙂 My favourite picture 🙂

Ms. Dara and I dancing 🙂 Well, at least she is :/
Dara and I again.
Dara was taking this group picture. The other people posing for this picture are Dara’s friends.

And this has nothing to do with Halloween but… PAUL’S COMING TO TOWN THIS THURSDAY!!!! :):):):):):):):) Look what he did for me before leaving South Korea:

Paulwrus and a Moon Bear at Bear Tree Park!


And oh, I hate school! GRRR!


Outsourced! October 30, 2010

Filed under: General — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 11:56 pm

Cast of Outsourced

You guys have to watch Outsourced 🙂 It’s a  new TV series based on an indie movie with the same title. Super super funny!

And this TV show made me miss/crave Indian food. GRRR.


I facepalm myself now. October 26, 2010

Filed under: General,School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 8:47 am

Argh! I screwed up my group today by doing a really bad job in the introduction section of my group’s proposal presentation earlier today in my coastal methods class. *cries* I wasn’t freaking out till it was our turn to present. And it got worse when Google Docs jammed the weakass computer system in that Marine Science Building computer lab. SO SORRY GUYS! 😦

I also facepalm myself for accidentally knocking down a potted plant at the tutoring center earlier today at the start of the group meeting before our presentation.

But the most facepalm event of the day was when my lab partner, who is also (in my understanding) the “boss” of the tutors at the tutoring center, acted as a jerk/douchebag. He had valid reason to do so though.

Some soil from the potted plant got onto the carpet at the tutoring center. since my group members were there to discuss and work on our proposal paper and presentation, I said I’ll clean the mess I made after going over some stuff with my group.

Guess what Mr. Tutor Boss said to me?

“I heard you knocked down my plant. When you make a mess in life you don’t expect someone to clean up after you.”


WTF?! He’s comparing soil on carpet, to mess in REAL LIFE! :O:O:O And he was being a bitch about it too! I told him that I’m having a meeting with my group and that I’ll CLEAN IT AFTER I GET DONE WITH THE IMPORTANT STUFF.

But NOOOOOO. Mr. Tutor Boss wants it done NOW.

He even had the guts (which I think was NOT sincere at all) to say that he’s “sorry for being a jerk just now.” I replied, “Yes [insert name here], you were being a jerk just now. I’m having a group meeting if you can’t see.”

Funny how when you get to know someone better in life it just disappoints you when most of them are complete jerks. First impression – nice person. Hang out for awhile – decent friend. Take a class together – WTF IS THIS IDIOT DOING/SAYING?!

Key phrase: MOST OF THEM.

So yeah, I not only have to deal with the people I dislike the most this Wednesday when we go out for sample collection for our final project in coastal methods, I now have to deal with an older, immature lab partner tomorrow and on Thursday.

Fall 2010 = Misery. This makes me appreciate and to treasure the good moments with good friends more.

Rather have good friends than jerks called “friends”.


Facepalm moments in Coastal Methods. October 21, 2010

Filed under: General,School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 9:35 am


I wished that all you (phantom) readers were in my Coastal Methods class! Why?

Despite all the crapiness of this class, there are some really (stupid) funny moments in class. Especially when this buff guy speaks. He says some of the dumbest things in class sometimes.

Take earlier today for example. One of the professors for this class was just advising us to work together more efficiently, not only among the people in your own group, but other groups in the class as well, since most of the assignments require all groups to share their data to be compiled into a huge ass master spreadsheet. These spreadsheets should contain all raw data from the field and also numbers from all calculation needed to answer questions that come along with the assignment.

But not everyone updates the Google Docs (yeap, we use that now =.=) spreadsheet on time. Some update a couple of days later when a spreadsheet is set up or couple of days BEFORE the assignment is due. Some groups don’t do the right calculations too, which results in other groups to calculate the “right” number for the other groups data and NOT sharing it with other groups.

I mean come on, if someone does something wrongly, let the person know. Don’t just be like “Oh, this guy is wrong. Lets just leave the wrong calculated values on the master spreadsheet instead of correcting/letting that guy know!”

Anyways, back to the buffed up, Wolverine lookalike. He made a comment that some groups see these assignments to be a competition and that we, as a class, despite of being in different groups, shouldn’t be competitive.

I was like, WTF is this jerk off saying?!

In fact, everyone in the class was like WTF??!??!!!!

COMPETITIVE?! How is this being competitive?

The best part was when all the groups were calculating values for our fish survey data and that buff idiot didn’t want to share his data with us by updating the Google Docs spreadsheet! OMG! Competitive?!

“Everyone’s calculating everyone’s groups’ values. Why should I give you my data?” WTF?!

I’m so glad that everyone (minus the group members in that jerk off’s group) in class now makes fun of this comment.

It’s so fun going up to your classmate and say “No, I will not help you. This is a competition, MUTHAFCKA!”


I’m proud to be a nerd/geek. October 15, 2010

Filed under: General,School — ithinkishouldkillmyself @ 2:56 am

I’ve been getting some really snarky comments from a friend of mine when I talk about Heroes of Newerth with some of my other friends.

“You’re such a nerd, Jon.”

“You need to stop playing Heroes of Newerth and do something useful.”

I just feel like telling him to go screw his butthole with a dildo or something.

Mr. Friend, what have you been doing that is so useful? You’re dumb, you’re probably going to fail in Organic Chemistry, and stop being a know-it-all because YOU DON’T KNOW SHIT! There’s a fine line between being confident and being a know-it-all. You’re a dumb know-it-all. If you wanna show off, at least be SMART!

Anyways, guess what my favorite snack is? :):):):)

Trailmix, MOFOs! Picture from CandyAddict.com.

I hate raisins but it’s bearable in this snack. Wish I could get trailmix for a lower price though :/

I finally did well in my Quantitative Analysis exam! I got a 92/100 on my second test! Woot woot! Thank God! Time and energy spent paid off! Hoping to get an A in this class to give my GPA a puny “boost” since I both my Marine Science classes are so unorganized this semester and Geology…. Ummmm…. No idea what’s going on in that class! haha!